God I am pathetic at the moment. Not only have I had to cancel my psych appointments because I have 4k of backlog of medical bills to sort out but my ex has just left town and all we managed was polite hellos and goodbyes, well, not even a goodbye as he was leaving this morning.
So I am in trauma at the moment in the scheme of things, feel guilty about my current boyfriend being totally in love with me and me still lusting after my ex (still......stilll.........7 years).
I am a bad and ugly person. Feelings of harming myself to take away the hurt. But that is not good, so I am self medicating with red wine.