So I tried a night without Seroquel and it didn't work - 4 hours sleep.
Today, I slept in until 4 pm. I don't know why and as I lay in bed and dreamed about how good life could be, I lost track of time. And I feel bad about myself.
I have been reading a lot about Buddhism over the last week and really like the philosophy, I just don't know how I can start living it. I have learned there are different schools of thought and I am pretty certain which one I want to follow, but I have lots of questions about it and can't afford to go and see someone to learn to meditate properly and get these questions answered.
Am still trying to control the drinking and have great support from a friend on fb who has been dry for 5 years now. She enthuses about how she has turned her life around and it really inspires me. I just wish I had some willpower.